Midnight Musings

Eyes= Sleepy.

Brain= Not so much sleepy.

Solution= Blog.

Here are some things I'm thinking about while I can't sleep:

DON'T you hate it when you're wearing a shirt that buttons up the front,

and when you take it off, you forget to undo the buttons,

so you're standing half dressed with your shirt inside-out over your head

and you can't get your head out until you undo the buttons,

and you're really glad (at least I am) that there's no one around

to participate in your stupid moment,

except for the fact that you put in on your blog

so now the whole world can have the stupid moment with you?

IS IT incredibly nerdy that I was really excited about

buying a German/English Dictionary yesterday?

I was.

It's a hardback, professional-looking book.

I like it.

I TOTALLY judge books by their covers.

And sometimes their interiors, too.

You can give me the most boring book on earth,

but if the cover and inside are pretty and well put-together,

I will love reading it.

THIS evening,

there was a very scary family incident

that required me to wear this:

The situation, most thankfully,

turned out alright, although I feel a little on-edge still,

which is probably contributing to my inability to sleep.

But really, sometimes,

things happen so quickly and can completely change your life...

I guess it's good to have a darn good scary moment

here and there in life to keep me really

believing in What I hold on to all the time...

YOU know,

sometimes,

I have a hard time deciding just how much of

my personal (mostly meaning cyber-personal)

life and beliefs I should make public.

But, as a sleep-deprived mind will sometimes prompt one to do,

I will tell you something about me that I don't often post in public forums.

I love believing in God.

I love loving Him.

He gives me His love that is so sweet and so constant,

when I am so horribly flawed and fickle towards Him sometimes.

He puts all shapes and colors of clouds in the sky everyday,

just because He knows I love to look at them.

He makes leaves change colors with seasons,

to remind me of time,

and to make me thankful for the present.

He makes fall just so I can love to scuff through fallen leaves,

and kick around the acorns on the sidewalk,

and smell the crisp, cool air that reminds me

of past holidays and soccer seasons.

He makes the birds sing songs that

caress my heart as I walk around the noisy city.

He makes the sky turn all shades of blue throughout the day,

just because they're all my favorite.

He makes the sky grey and cold so that I can love

cozying up in sweaters and scarves and sipping hot drinks by warm fires,

and so that I'll be even more thankful for the brightness of the sun when it returns.

He gave words power so that poetry and stories would touch my heart,

and to cause me to be careful of the words I use,

that I might speak power and hope when I open my mouth.

He reminds me of how faithful a friend He is to me,

when I feel like I haven't got any others near.

He gives me music that is a 'whole nuther' language that we can sing together.

He gave me my family so that I will always know that no matter where I go,

or what career I might have,

or how lonely, exciting, daunting, and marvelous my future will be,

they will always be there-

happy to skype with me,

happy to have me come home again,

interested in what I've learned and experienced,

ready to sit and chat about anything and everything,

and giving me so much love

that my heart is full to hurting with its memory

and makes me love them all even more for it.

Not everyone is blessed with a family like mine,

but He made sure that I had them,

and that makes me love Him even more.