Saturday, August 29, 2009


Everything in my life is new right now. I'm settled into my new home in Baltimore. I finished an insanely exhausting week of trying to test out of review classes, trying to make new friends, and trying to figure out how to register for all the classes I need to take this semester at Peabody.
And I miss my family so much that it hurts today.
A few things are not new: the old intimidation of wanting to do well in school. Wanting to prove myself in the new opera department (of 115 students). The exciting/somewhat stressful fun of being in classes again. That feeling of "oh man, I forgot that I had that thing to do today".
But the weather here in good ol' Balmer is so lovely this week. Yes, it's still thick with humidity, but the winds are nice and the evenings are perfect. I love being down at the harbor. I know, I know, I'm such a tourist. But I love the people busy with seeing sights alongside me- they like to be there, and I like to be there. So I don't mind being touristy. I'll say it: I like it :)
Another new thing I've discovered, is that it's very easy to be negative here: The humidity, the city smog, the danger of living downtown, that singer who looked at me funny, the amount of classes, the lack of internet availability, the lack of close friends who really love what I love, the competition. But I've also discovered that, be it just my personality or my age, it's pretty easy so far to just be myself here. I love pretty things. I drinking tea from tea cups. I love walking outside (good thing, 'cause I don't have a car...). I love meeting new people. I love learning new things. I love to look at the brighter side of things, even if others are looking at the negative. And I love singing. I love the music. I love being able to sing it into people's souls, whether they realize it or not. I love acting with the music and words. I love being able to like the fact that I like these things, and I love being able to try my hardest to not let that change just because I'm in a new place. I love to try and use nice language, when no one else is. I love knowing that I have some really, really good heart friends, even if they're not here with me now. I hold onto you, just so you know. You get me through the day, even though I don't get to talk to you as much as I'd like.
I hope that none of this changes during my stay here at Peabody. I really hope that I can maintain my seemingly lighter outlook and somewhat simpler loves and likes.
Sorry for the randomness of this post. It's kind of all I've got in me right now.

Love you.


  1. I miss you so much! It's pretty lonely around here too.
    But you are going to make some really great life-long friendships up there. I just know it! I'm so excited to come up there and visit you! See you soon! Love you!

  2. I love to hear about the things you love! It's what make you Annie. Stay strong, cause people can't help but love you because of those things. We miss you too. A lot.